i spend my days running through blogs, other peoples photos and i dream
yes, i dream about where they are, what they were thinking when they shot that photo
i dream of where they are going next, what they are seeing
and i get to a post, a poem
and it makes me stop
stop and realize where i am and where i'm going and who i'm seeing
i realize i don't want to be here, here right now
i want to fly
i want to go
i want to run, walk, stroll, skip, jump
anything
what's it going to take for me to get there......
not quite sure what to make of this site anymore
not quite sure what to make of myself anymore
not quite sure where i fit in
not quite sure where i want to fit in
not quite sure where this site fits in
taking a break to do some soul searching and enjoy what i have right in front of me
not sure how long or how short....
i take the moments to enjoy the peace
the moments where you get to the drs office 5 minutes early
the moments of waiting in the room
the moments before anyone else comes into the office
the moments in the car alone with the music blaring
the moments in the bathroom when no one else is there
the moments on the sidewalk just me
the moments after her breath slow and she's finally fallen asleep
the moments where i lay in bed, my head hits the pillow hard and i try so damn hard to not think about that, or her, or him, or this or that
to just be
just be in bed
rest
take the moment where there is finally silence
but there won't be total silence
the moments before i myself finally drift to sleep.....
Kadison had my camera for a day; this is a photo she took of her art table.... even though it's blurry I love it!
