i often go back and forth with trusting my own voice; sometimes "everyone" else's voice seeps in and takes over.
for instance my whole pregnancy and labor ~ "they" told me we were having a boy; because of the way I looked ...etc...etc... "they" told me that it would be a quick labor once it all started going since it was my 2nd ....
well none of it was true and deep down i knew this, i knew it wasn't a boy, I "thought" it might be but I never had a deep down feeling like i did with Kadison and the labor was nothing close to "quick", in fact it was longer than the first time...and deep down i knew this to be true too
but i chose to listen to everyone else and not "my" voice and ended up feeling frustrated, defeated and shamefully disappointed.
why is it so hard to listen to our own voice?
why is it so hard to block "everyone" else out?
why do i find it so hard to trust myself?
yes, i can come lay with you, yes, i can get you some milk first, yes, i will tell you milo and murphy stories, yes, 2, not 3..ok 3...
no, you can't get up on the dresser, yes, you can help change her diaper, no you can't use the hand cleaner more, i said no
no, you can't watch more dora, yes, we can go in your room and read books, no i can't put the baby down right now, no, she needs to eat, yes from me
yes, you can wear your pajamas all day if you want, yes, you can wear those black shoes if you want, yes, let's go outside
yes, you can have more peaches, yes, you can have more, yes, you can have more...i'm just happy you're eating
no, please don't unroll the toilet paper, please don't do that
yes, you can give her a kiss, no you can't put stickers in her hair
yes, i'll play with you if you can please not yell at me to get out of your room
penelope ~ 4 days old
I know Valentine's Day is a "Hallmark" Holiday but what better than a day to remind us to tell the ones we love that we love them dearly....
Sending the love....
penelope ~ 4 days old
Introducing Penelope Renee Lindeen with her Big Sister Kadison ~
Penelope was born February 7th at 9:08pm after a long day of labor; and honestly we were a bit surprised to be introduced to another baby girl. Everyone thought we were having a boy but we're very very excited about our girls!
Penelope was 7lbs 12oz with loads of dark hair like her sister did.
We are all home and enjoying the chaos of a family of 4.
All is well here....thanks for all the support and love over these past 9months and beyond
More photos to come....
~40 weeks
Still no babe ~ drove out to Ocean Beach to try to gain some calm; I've been pretty anxious as you can imagine!
Beautiful day in the bay area....I'm so thankful to be able to get out and walk and enjoy the hot sun on my face.
Don't you just love the cloud coming out of the top of my head?!!
