photo by andrea
i'm going to put together my hopes, my wishes for 2008 but just not yet.
i'm going to put together my mondo beyondo list for 2008 but just not yet.
what i am going to put out there right now is to stop living in fear ~ fear about everything and nothing. stop the fear as much as possible.
it gets me a whole lot of disappointment in myself and life.
it stops here baby
no fear 2008!
~the sun is shining and the grocery shopping is done with the help from my "little helper" ~ she can't get enough of "let me help mama!!"
~the walk to the park to run around and climb is done
~the walk to see the wet red leaves on the ground, the left over christmas lights and pink flamingo's flying santa's slaves in the front yards of many
~feeling achy and cumbersome and trying to relish all the twists and turns that go on inside of me ~ it's really what i love about being pregnant; the movements of someone alive inside of me. some say it's alien like and it sometimes is but man, it's still a miracle that happens that i sometimes can't get enough of. it gets me through the sleepless nights, the heartburn, the waddling and the aches and pains
~i enjoyed jen's list of "hopes" for 2008 and not getting hung up on resolutions. i don't much like resolutions myself. i have so many hopes, wishes and dreams for 2008 ~ i need to start my "list"
kadison and I ~ mt tam
~feeling a little relief after the house guests, the holidays, the last 8 months....
~loving my new planner ~
~taking a drive up to hike Mt. Tam yesterday ~ a beautiful day
~sneaking out to see this movie ~ a must see - LOVED IT!!!
~getting excited for the new babe's arrival - going into nesting mode
~reading this ~ trying to get perspective
~keeping this for myself instead of giving it as a gift... merry christmas to me!
~excited about the second book
~looking forward to this magic coming in the mail...
busy busy....enjoying the moments though....
see you in the brand new year!
xo
A day in the life of us around here lately...I'm going to be honest, it's been difficult, blissful, tearful and just plain hard.
Kadison is a magical, hilarious little girl and I can't even express how much joy and love she brings me. The words, phrases and sentences that come out of her mouth on a daily basis amaze us. These past few months have been the hardest and most frustrating I've ever had to deal with and it's because of her. She didn't come with a handbook and those pregnancy/parenting books that I read cover to cover before she came along did not prepare us or even tell us what to really do now.
She won't eat and she won't sleep - a combo that can be darn right disasterous, of course because I know how I get when those 2 things don't happen. But when you're 2 and those 2 things don't happen you can't really know the full blown ramifications. But we sure do....
Tim and I have our moments where we're laughing at how all of this is pay back for whatever either of us did to our own parents but that can only go so far. We're trying and doing our best and sometimes that just isn't enough. I feel like a total failure on a regular basis and defeated most days.
I know this is all a phase and we will have them through out her life and ours but this phase is knocking us all on our butts!
Knowing there is another magical joyfull little one coming to us soon just makes it more scarier and more exciting at the same time. Some days I ask myself what we got ourselves into but the days of joy and overwhelming love conquer all.
So the silence on my part these past few months is only because the hours in the day are limited and my energy level is pretty low....please don't forget about me...I hope to come up for air sooner than later but you just never know what this unpredictable future holds!
The beautiful and uber talented Superhero Andrea came into our home for a photoshoot this past weekend - she captured magic that I didn't even know existed. It was such a pleasure and a gift.....
One Boy Told Me
Music lives inside my legs.
It's coming out when I talk.
I'm going to send my valentines
To people you don't even know.
Oatmeal cookies make my throat gallop.
Grown-ups keep their feet on the ground
When they swing. I hate that.
Look at those 2 o's with a smash in the middle—
That spells goodbye.
Don't ever say “purpose” again,
Let's throw that word out.
Don't talk big to me.
I'm carrying my box of faces.
If I want to change faces I will.
Yesterday faded
But tomorrow's in BOLD FACE.
When I grow up my old names
Will live in the house
Where we live now.
I'll come and visit them.
Only one of my eyes is tired.
The other eye and my body aren't.
Is it true that all metal was liquid first?
Does that mean if we bought our car earlier
They could have served it
In a cup?
There's a stopper in my arm
That's not going to let me grow any bigger.
I'll be like this always, small.
And I will be deep water too.
Wait. Just wait. How deep is the river?
Would it cover the tallest man with his hands in the air?
Your head is a souvenir.
When you were in New York I could see you
In real life walking in my mind.
I'll invite a bee to live in your shoe.
What if you found your shoe
Full of honey?
What if the clock said 6:92
Instead of 6:30? Would you be scared?
My tongue is the car wash
For the spoon.
Can noodles swim?
My toes are dictionaries.
Do you need any words?
From now on I'll only drink white milk
On January 26.
What does minus mean?
I never want to minus you.
Just think—no one has ever seen
Inside this peanut before!
It is hard being a person.
I do and don't love you—
Isn't that happiness?
~Naomi Shihab Nye via Laurie Wagner