somewhere between california and wisconsin
i'm just a girl who loves the windows and the doors open to let all the fresh air in as much as possible
i'm just a girl who thinks way too much about everything, and I mean everything
i'm just a girl who wants to learn how to cook, wants to want to but just can't get to that point
i'm just a girl who loves deeply but sometimes doesn't know how to show that
i'm just a girl who works in an office that sometimes feels like an extended family you want to run far away from
i'm just a girl who lives in an apartment but who dreams of either traveling in a VW bus or of living in a little house with a yard of her own
i'm just a girl who wants to paint her walls
i'm just a girl who wants so many different things I wonder who this girl is sometimes
i'm just a girl who constantly asks why and how I could be so blessed
i'm just a girl who sometimes looks forward to seeing people from high school just so they can see me now
i'm just a girl who can be shy but then turn around and dance on a bar (well, i guess that hasn't happened in a while)
i'm just a girl who tries to do good, but knows she's not perfect
i'm just a girl who's still learning and who is also trying to teach her little girl
#2 baby on the way - 12 weeks
I've been hesitating talking about this all yet; not because it's early or anything like that but talking about it more and more makes it true. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy and excited but it's different than the first time. The first time it's all new and exciting and you have no idea what to expect. The second time around you do know what to expect and you do what it's going to be like ...at least somewhat. Now, again not like it's bad it's just a different excitement, a different reality. A bit more scarier for me..... After seeing the ultrasound yesterday and seeing the reality of this little being made it all real for me. I walked out there on a high like no other. More excited than I've been so was a relief because I've been a bit worried about my feelings...
Our little family is very excited to welcome a new addition and I'm finally starting to feel a tad normal after these last few weeks of nausea! I don't remember it being that bad the first time around. Everything is happening quicker and more intense I feel.
I'm really trying to savor all these moments since I believe this to be my last time pregnant and it truly is an experience like no other.
So no more secrets here....I'm pregnant and enjoying the moments the best I can.
i dreamt of days spent at the beach
i dreamt of days spent with a boy and a little girl that i call my family
i dreamt of a place with room to run around and have make believe parades down the hall
i dreamt of a yard big enough to have a little kiddie pool to splash around in
i dreamt of lemon, orange and apple trees in my own yard
i dreamt of everything i have now....i need to remind myself of that every now and then
trying to get a toddler to sleep and stay in her big girl" bed
trying to get enough time to download photos, upload photos and god forbid, but print some photos
trying to get outside during the day ...for a what you say ??? a walk!!! wow, what a concept
trying to meet with friends - for drinks, dinner, something!
trying to celebrate our 9 year wedding anniversary
trying to count the days until we leave for Mexico ~ just the two of us
trying to update this blog and stay connected...
always just trying...
Kadison and I are back from our whirlwind trip to Wisconsin to visit our friends and family ~ it was indeed a whirlwind with cancelled flights, ear-aches, driving to and from everyone's homes, fireworks that were "oh, so beautiful!" and good laughs with old friends! So happy to say that we were able to see and visit with everyone that we wanted to and that everyone took the time out of their busy lives to take us in.
I'm grateful to have all these wonderful women in my life ~ even after being "away" for so long the bonds hold us together and never seem to deter us from getting back to where we left off.
I can only hope that Kadison has the opportunity to create these kinds of friendships as she grows up; because this is what holds me together.
A big shout out and thank you to all my wisconsin peeps ~ we love you ~
***photos to come....my camera is buried in the mounds of luggage and clothes***