it was a rough few weeks but then a small miracle happened and i was granted a client somewhere else other than the bay area....so i get to go on a plane and spend a night in a hotel ALONE. This may be weird to some, that I would get excited about this but coming from a mom it's not! leaving today...soon...be back sunday...
take care everyone...looking forward to coming home a little more sane.
My writing group started back up....
Inspired by the poem "Mona" by Geri Digiorno
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There were things she loved beside herself
Like red coats and red boots high up on her leg
She loved eating out better than cooking at home ~ she appreciated someone else cleaning up the mess along with cooking the meal she'd never do herself
She loved the way the waves crashed at the ocean edge
She loved the spray that would hit her face
The smile that would instantly spill across her
There were things she loved beside herself
Like movies at midnight, wine chilled in her glass at night
The fur covered slippers she'd flop around in after getting home
There were other things she loved
Like traveling to far off places, the way the sun felt different on her skin anywhere else other than home
She loved books that spoke the sad truths
She loved the laughter of children and the pure innocence that shined on their faces
She loved connections that came immediatly after sitting down over a drink of any sort
She loved the looks from the men at the coffee shop in the morning ~ didn't matter how old they were
There were things she loved beside herself
Like being free to roam the city streets day or night or lighting a cigarette any ol time
She loved pizza at a dive bar in Wisconsin with a pint of beer more than almost anything else
She loved dancing alone to music so loud no one could hear themselves
She loved back rubs and fingers through her hair
She loved the touch to her face that meant "yes, I'm here"
She love the photographs that came through as such a surprise
She loved to see emails from her, her and her
She loved being part of a team but also craved the alone-ness
She loved caramel apples and soft serve ice cream at Fisherman's Wharf
She loved salads with apples and walnuts
She loved bowl, bowls and more bowls
She loved having a fresh mani/pedi and wearing flip flops
She loved the way the weight came off without much doing
She loved the allergy pills that don't let her crave
There were things she loved beside herself
Like drinks at a tiki bar down the street
She loved crisp bright days spent in a park
She loved walking in museums and self portraits in bathrooms
She loved comfy sweaters and wooly socks
She loved red lipstick and charcoal eyes
She loved oatmeal and blueberries with a touch of sweet honey
She love the nightly routine of a book read
She loved her sitting in her lap and the warmth surrounding them
She loved small hugs and kisses on her cheek
She loved the sound of "love you"
She loved nourishing baths at night and meditative showers in the morning
most of all she loved....
self~DeYoung Museum bathroom
FAITH
by David Whyte
I want to write about faith,
about the way the moon rises
over cold snow, night after night,
faithful even as it fades from fullness,
slowly becoming that last curving and impossible
sliver of light before the final darkness.
But I have no faith myself
I refuse it the smallest entry.
Let this, then, my small poem,
like a new moon, slender and barely open,
be the first prayer that opens me to faith.
by David Whyte, from *Where Many Rivers Meet*
(via Rob Brezsny)
~ants overtaking our kitchen
~the hose on the washer broke - water everywhere
~did i say ants overtaking our kitchen????....nothing is helping...if anyone has any miracle solutions please let me know!
~curling up on the couch thumbing through "Cottage Living" and dreaming...
~realizing Kadison is 21 months old and that 2 is just around the corner...wow!
~the question of more children hanging over our heads....
~making lists upon lists
~actually doodling and coming up with a "girl" that I like...maybe I'll make birthday cards this year with her...if I get her to a good place I'll post her...
~walking a bit in circles...cabin fever already!
~looking forward to tomorrow......
alameda sunset
feeling a bit under the weather but wanting to connect....
taking a walk through alameda tonight with dear kate; i realized how much i do crave the interaction, the enthusiasm, the connection we all get from one another. it doesn't have to take much effort, you don't have to think too much..just showing up can mean so much
it means so much but can be so simple
craving the simple things:
a walk through neighborhoods at night
hanging in a tea shop listening to local musicians
chatting in a bookstore
singing with my little girl
splashing in the tub
off to bed to take care of me....
i'm carrying over a little traditional or ritual you might say into this new year: every night i pull out my journal and i write what i'm grateful for on that particular day and what brought me joy and if anything brought me sorrow. it's been great to end my day with this and i will be occassionally be posting them here whenever i desire...like today
grateful for a few minutes on the phone with Heather and Missy on their birthday's
grateful for a mini walk yesterday
grateful for the song "the wheels on the bus"
grateful for cinnamon buns in the morning
grateful for the sun to be shining on this fine Sunday afternoon
kadison and tims laugh bring me so much joy
taking a long hot shower and lathering up with my favorite lotions
getting all the laundry done, folded and put away!
i've read on a few different sites about picking one word to describe 2007
one word that you want it to be
one word that tells how you feel right now or how you want to start feeling
one word..
one word to describe your intention...
what would it be...
i have so many...it's hard to pick...
peace
and ok i have to pick two
fun
ok...your turn
i think it's all because of the full moon - pics taken by Tim last night...I was way too warm snuggled up in bed to go out into the cold night!
The joys of being at home with Kadison for over a week and then going back to work today ....
singing the theme to Dora the Explorer and bits from the book "Down by the Bay"
gotta love it....
lone leaf ~alameda, ca
january 1st 2007 - who knew??? who really knew where they would be at this moment in time? are you surprised? did you always have a feeling this is where you would end up?
it's surprising and shocking to me but then when i thought about it today looking out at the bay ...i thought ....well...it's not so far fetched but then again, yes, i'm shocked to know where i am right now and to go back 15 years and think this is where i am now...it's pretty damn cool
so many things trucking through my brain today on my first walk of the year to the beach...but when i finally sat down in the cozy sand my mind was actually at peace ...and it felt good
i have some new ideas for the blog this year...but we'll see...trying not to put too many expectations on myself so early!