the other day i was part of a visualization exercise and I was to go forward 20 years and meet my "older self". I have to admit I was scared to knock on that door, i had fear around who that person would be....
But I did it, I knocked and the woman on the other side was so inviting and warm and the aura around her made me feel so welcomed and loved. I didn't get a visual of her looks but I felt the presence of her. I saw what she had and how she lived and it made me so happy. At the end of the visualization I said goodbye and asked her what I needed to know and she told me "faith in self" & "enjoy now" and when I asked her to give me name, a word she gave me "spirit" (only after not saying anything at all and me panicking that it was going to be over and she wouldn't of told me anything....again, "having faith" in self resonated with me.
It was powerful in so many ways but to see and feel my older self and see her in a place I've visualized over and over for the last few years felt so powerful and happy.
I have to admit I don't know what to "do" with all this information but I do enjoy the feeling I get knowing that I can have that life, that person, that place if I really want it.
do you ever feel so good that you just want to bottle that feeling up and bring it out again and again? or do you ever feel so good that you just want to relish in it at the moment and just "be" with it? or do you ever feel so good that you want to keep the feeling going forever?
well a couple of friday's ago I felt "good", better than i've felt in a very long time and i felt it. i felt the "vibe" of a great day and "feeling" that i wanted to relish in. i knew it wouldn't last but i wanted to keep it going for as long as possible.
it didn't last longer than that day but i wrote this so i can at least go back to it and get a sense of what a good friday afternoon vibe felt like... thought i would share it with you....
boalting out of the office into the sunny outside to run errands on the lunch hour
a little high on some caffeine that I regularly don't drink
off to 1, 2, 3 places and things are running smoothly
happy it's friday
happy it's sunny
pick up photograph's that i got printed that i'm so
happy with - man, i'm good!
found a parking spot quick, the cute man in the
convertible helps me with it
gives me the thumbs up, i wave back a thanks!
did i mention he was cute?
pop some money into the meter, stop into CHOW to order lunch to go
pop into the next door bookstore to browse because...
i can...
see an art book that inspires me, open it up and get
transported to italy for 10 minutes
out the door feeling a shift within myself
pick up lunch, wink at the bartender who winks at me
smiling and feeling good
back in the car, down the street, the green lights help me get back in time to get the front row parking space
zip back into the work courtyard, sit down with a sigh
and a rumbling belly
laugh a bit with co-workers
enjoying the friday vibe
feeling a shift within myself that i'm really liking
now, it might not feel this way tomorrow but i'll take it today
Right before we headed out to "Baby loves Disco" - highly recommend it. Kadison wasn't the only one shaking her rump to the music!!
It felt so good to be out dancing again, even if it was with a hundred other kids!!!
It's time to move
It's time to groove
It's time to really dig in
Taking baby steps, micromovements to find my inner spirit
something has to give
something has to change
something has to happen
Things are in motion...
Life is passing by and I don't want to be the hitchhiker on the side
of the road with my thumb out *waiting* for someone else to pick me
up anymore..
I want to be the one in the driver seat, in my own ride, grooving to
my own beat
me...33...the good, the bad and the silly
i can still smile and still act silly.......
....continuing to enjoy the happy moments......
....and trying not to get bogged down with the unhappy ones.....
....happy weekend everyone....
me...kadison...saying it all...
~walks at sunset
~watching para-surfers
~people fly kites at the beach
~zoo trips
~4th of July parades
~too much sun
~splashing around in our new pool
~grilling out
~corn on the cobb
~eating dinner outside
~naps in the afternoon
~lemons on the tree
~trees blooming beautiful lavender flowers
~birthday surprises
~fresh cut grass
~fireflies
~kids laughing outside until the wee-hours
~road trips
~sand between the toes
~pedicures
~farmers market ~ ripe juicy peaches, yummy blueberries, raspberries and blackberries!
~happier times...
enjoying the summer while it's around....