Tying in Photo Friday's Best of 2005 and Grateful Friday - this photo sums them both up.
My husband Tim and Baby girl Kadison ~ they are the best of this year and they are again, what I'm most grateful for. My mind may wander to so called bigger and better things but I always come back to them; there is nothing bigger and better than the ones I love the most and who love me just the same.
Happy New Year everyone ~ see you in 2006!
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice ~ mary oliver
Somedays I feel like a caged bird with no way out
Somedays I feel like a bird flying to far out of reach
Somedays I feel like a caged bird with the door wide open
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If you get the chance to experience Cirque du Solei - Corteo ~ please do. I surprised Tim with tickets on Friday night and it was amazing! Utterly amazing and beautiful and wonderful and totally awesome cool!
I took a trampeze class once and I am proud to say that I flew from the flying trapeze - on the last day of class....that's all I needed and I was done after that....but I wonder if when I was a kid if I would of had the opportunity to go to circus school and fly then if I would be flying still today???.........
Kadison and Tim - game day
Grateful to have these 2 in my life!
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The way you smile at me when I walk in the door
The way you roll over in the middle of the night if I just rub your arm - because you snore
The way you light up when you see our "sweet cheeks"
The way you are with Kadison - she couldn't ask for a better Dad and neither could I
The way you're there for me when I really need you
The way you'll let me come in for hugs at any ol time
The way you laugh
The way you tell stories and jokes
The way you can make me laugh
The way you laugh at me when I need to be laughed at
The way you let me dance and sing even when you know I'm bad
The way you just smiled when you heard I was the Karoake Queen at my office party
The way you call me the day after my office party to see how my hangover is treating me
The way you know when I need to get out of the house
The way we are when we go for walks in our neighborhood
The way you put up with my obsessions and compulsions
The way you roll your eyes at me because I won't be part of the whole football thing...there's still hope for Kadison!
The way you are .....I love you ....Happy Birthday T!!!
photo by tim
I'm sick with a sore throat and I can't really talk and I don't really have much to say but I miss you...I miss this...
We decorated our house this weekend for Christmas and now I'm finally in the mood ~ I'm getting excited even. It's Kadison's first Christmas and even though she's too young to really know what's going on it's still fun to see her amazement at the lights and tree and stockings hanging from our cardboard fireplace.
Every year I ponder what Christmas really means to me and I've never really come up with a good meaning; ok, well I haven't really thought too much about it until this year, now that I'm a parent and I have to teach another little human about it. I better get a grip on what it means to me. I'm not overly religious; (sorry mom) but I am spiritual. But is this what Christmas is? Spiritual? Or is it in fact religious? or is it all about the spending money on gifts and trying to get the perfect one? Is it all about family and friends? is it about giving and receiving or just giving? it makes my head spin...
I need to think about this some more and really come up with what it means for me and for us as a famiily. Obviously it means bringing us together as a family and creating family traditions with family and friends, it means giving to one another and to others that are less fortunate. But my dilemma with all of this is that I want to be doing this all year round; not just around this 1 holiday...
It leads me yo really thinking about my values, morals and what my life mission really is; I've just been going along with this life of mine with trying to keep a good life and trying to be a good person along the way but now that I have a child and I want to have some core beliefs to pass along to her. Again, much to think about...
It's a funny thing...writing out your thoughts ...because I had no idea this was where I was going...
Dear Kadison ~
You're 8 months today; it feels like yesterday that was I at the hospital ready to meet you.
You've started crawling; yes, this week you crawled! Daddy was here to catch it on tape since I was away at work. He layed you down on your floor in your room and you saw your favorite penguin and crawled straight for him without stopping. Daddy was very surprised! You are full of surprises every day.
You're eating more and more foods and really loving them - we couldn't be happier. You love bananas and would eat those all day if we let you!
No teeth yet but the drooling sure hasn't stopped...
You flew again last month and went back to Minnesota to meet all of your Daddy's family. You experienced your first real cold weather and I can honestly say you didn't like it :) But you did enjoy meeting your cousins, aunts, uncles and great gramma. Everyone loved you of course and the flight home with both Daddy and I went very smoothly which I really appreciated!
You wave now too and when I leave for work you wave bye bye...or at least I say you do!
You met Santa yesterday and even sat on his lap for a photo; we didn't know how you would like that but we actually couldn't get you off since you loved his beard so much! There's nothing like meeting Santa outside in his sleigh in 70 degree weather too!
You're also still as curious as always...looking around, over and under things..wanting to know where all the sounds are coming from and who is where and who is who. It's funny and we call you curious george alot. I hope you stay that way.
You've also had your first cold; running nose that won't go away! I'm pretty tired of it and I'm sure you are too. You sure don't like when we suck out your nose but you just haven't gotten the concept of blowing yet.
I said that you're crawling but you're also pulling yourself up in your crib and along the couch so we're wondering if walking is going to be in the near future. I can wait for that so don't be over anxious ok.
Christmas is in a couple of weeks and we'll be staying home and trying our hand at our very own traditions; don't know what those will be yet but I'm sure we'll think of something. You helped me decorate the tree yesterday and you really don't know what to make of the tree in our living room yet and the colored things glowing on it but you seemed to smile at it this morning when you got up.
I treasure every day I have with you my sweet cheeks and I'm looking forward to having a whole week off to spend with you and Daddy! You bring us both such joy and that little muppet smile you make now melts our heart and everyone that sees it.
love you so much!
mama
It's winter time here in my little island town; the lemon tree is plump full of ripe lemons and the houses are decorated with Christmas lights! It's officially HOLIDAY TIME!
In case your fretting about what to buy your loved one for the holidays I have a few suggestions that I've come across this past year....enjoy:)
Jewelry:
Andrea's necklaces are a given since they make anyone a Superhero!
Books:
My friend Sherry just self published this wonderful book - a sure win for the holidays
Sabrina is always a treat
I've fallen in love with anything and everything that Amy writes
Rob's new book sounds like a must read ~ it's on MY list
The SUN is always a great gift idea
Danny Gregory and Dan Price ~Both sketchers with style and writing that will make you think
Art:
Mati is beautiful and wonderful and I'm looking forward to brightening my home with her paintings
Christine's holiday cards are too cute to pass up
Music:
Any of Martine's cd's are a sure winner
The Weepies - listening to them right now
Misc:
Holiday cards etc...loving this cool designer
The journals and wish cards are perfect stocking stuffers
SARK's new 2006 calendar is a sure smile every day
I'd love to hear your ideas!
a teacher of mine once said:
"it's not what you think it is, it's so much more!"
"be in a relationship with the moment"
"yes, to the first door; then all the rest just open"
"letting go of looking good"
"write what is true"
what is true for me right now is that I'm not sure what I'm doing is right for me...but where I am is true
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grateful to have so many teachers in my life...
we learn from one another
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