Tim & Kadison (AKA Sweet P)
Peek a boo...sweet P
Little Sweet K
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Happy Anniversary to Danielle and Tadd!
Happy Birthday to Sierra!
Happy Halloween to everyone ~ wishing you a spooky fun day!
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crisp fall leaves
Unfortunatly Kadison didn't realize that we turned the clocks back and that we got an extra hour of sleep ......so she was up early this morning!
After finally realizing I wasn't going to talk her into more sleep I decided to bundle her up and go for an early morning walk since the sun was peeking in our windows
The cool crisp morning air was just what I needed to wake up and enjoy this early morning
The dew/frost on the rose petals outside our door
The not so small slug creeping across the sidewalk
The silence
The leaves crackling under foot
All the spooky fun Halloween decorations everyone has up in my small island town
The coffee/tea shop that wasn't open that I was hoping would be..
Kadison's little bug nose peeking out from under the blanket and hoodie
Knowing I should of grabbed the camera before we left but didn't ...and realizing it was nice just to experience the treats we encountered and to remember them as I wanted...
hoping we get a nap in later today....
being grateful that Tim is coming home tonight...we've missed him!
jaden and jarin being boys...
i'm back ...i've been back ....but life has been kicking my ass..
i have a very bad cold and it's really hard to muster up the excitement and energy to list what i'm grateful for but i need to...i know..
i'm grateful ....
~to be home in my own bed
~that jen is ok after hurricane wilma
~for my co-workers who have been pulling my load for over a week and not really complaining
~for my big purple comforter
~that Kadison fell asleep early tonight so I can go to bed early too..
~to see the leaves changing the beautiful fall colors...
maybe this cold is telling me to slow down and get some rest...but it sure is hard ....
happy weekend! ***remember to turn your clocks back*********
I think it's wonderful how this "Grateful Friday" has caught on....
I'm grateful for the humor in my life
I'm grateful that this week is almost over
I'm grateful to be leaving on a trip tomorrow
I'm grateful for the moon that followed me home tonight
I'm grateful to live in a city that it's safe to walk home at night
I'm grateful for my healthy baby girl
I'm grateful to my husband who went into the scary basement to get my laundry
I'm grateful for the sadness that has entered me
I'm grateful to sit with my feelings ~ to realize I have them
I'm grateful for the words of Rumi
I'm grateful for the dance class I was a part of last weekend ~ it's my new Sunday morning ritual
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I'm off on an adventure ...be back soon!
It was brought to my attention recently that I wish my life away
I don't accept or revel in what I have
I wish for more
I recently bought wish books - yes, they are beautiful and I love and adore them but they are so beautiful I haven't been able to use them. I think; I'll give them away, but I can't do that either
It's funny how I often do this -I buy things that are beautiful and cool because they are beautiful and cool or because I want to support the person making them
It's my own vice about money - I spend it away without really thinking about it and I know that I can't afford to do it (this is a story for another time)
It's my own vice about wishes - I wish my life away without realizing how wonderful and beautiful I am
I look and see all the other beauty out there and I want to support it, I want to bring it closer, I want to breathe it in, I want to eat it up in hopes that it will seap into my soul and make me the essence of what they are creating
I have come to the conclusion that I have a lot of unused things around my place; be it books, journals, jewelry, clothes, art -yes, they all have beauty and so much love and hard work behind them and I do enjoy most of them... but is it in my best interest to have it all around me?
Is too much inspiration making me stuck? Do I hide behind everyone else's creativity?
It's something to really think about....
My dear sweet cheeks - Kadison Violet
You are 6 months today - a 1/2 year old
Wow, it's amazing how much you've changed, how the time flies and how it just seems like yesterday I was taking you home for the first time
You are so amazingly happy and smily and you giggle now, yes you giggle
You giggle when Daddy snuggles into your neck
You giggle when I blow on your belly
You giggle and I can't believe how it melts my heart each and every time
You are rolling over and you are almost scooting...not much longer and you will be crawling away from us
You can sit up too but you're more of a weeble wobbler though
You've eaten your first oatmeal and you didn't mind it, but I think you liked the purple spoon more
Everything you get your hands on goes straight to your mouth
You love to chew and suck
You've found your feet and those toes are being chewed on too...if only we could stay that flexible!
But no teeth yet...
You are quite the drooler though
All that hair of yours is leaving mama perplexed as to what to do with all of it ~ I can't even imagine you being the bald baby we see everywhere...
We've started with the barrettes and you don't like when I put them in but it keeps the crazy hair out of your beautiful eyes my dear
Your favorite book is "Brown Bear, Brown Bear"
You love it when we sing all of our goofy songs to you - The Itsy Bitsy Spider, our Sweet Cheeks song, Daddys shpants song and so many more
You've been on a plane already and you were such the good traveler..
We'll be getting back on that plane this Saturday and I'm crossing my fingers it's as great as the first...
You make me so happy and I wish I could scoop you up each and every morning and bring you with me to work but ...I can't....you will realize one day that we all have to work in one way or another and I just hope that you are doing something you love so passionatly it doesn't really feel like work!
I love you sweets!
~Mama
yes, it does
when we least expect it
or maybe we do expect it but it's better that we'd imagined
beauty comes in so many different ways
I made it to the dance class today and the power was on!
It was a beauty to see - all these people in a room dancing, moving, flowing to the beat of the music and to their own beat
Beautiful
Me, well it's hard to explain
Everything came up for me...
All the millions of insecurities and being uncomfortable and the fears ...yes, the fears!
It's so funny what we put ourselves through
But it was good
It was all good
I will be going back
Insecurities and all
jaden smiles
Grateful Friday...my new thing
Grateful for the words...thank God for the Words!
Grateful for the bubbles, the tiny smiles, and good friends who really get me..or at least try....
Grateful for the innocence of little boys....
And a whole lot of that...
I came across this in "Ali's" blog today and wanted to share it with you all...it really spoke to me.
From the book: Quiet Mind: One Minute Retreats from a Busy World by David Kundtz.
More than anything, our work represents the Mountain of Too Much, the overwhelming amount of things we have to do. Cramming more things in and cutting old stuff out are obsolete ways of coping that are no longer effective. And the Mountain of Too Much still rises up before us.
Our feeling of weariness comes not from the work that we have already done, nor even from the work that we are doing, but from the work we have left undone, or the work that is still ahead of us.
Or more specifically, what tires us most is not work, but the anticipation of work still to do. Here is a time when living in the present moment is vital. The past is gone, the future is just a concept and a projection of our minds. All you have is now. It's all you need.
So, there you are, facing the Mountain of Too Much in the form of a desk piled high with so much work that it is difficult to estimate how long you'll need to finish. It's a moment for a Stillpoint at the foot of the Mountain:
Take a deep breath. Another. I will just be still for a moment.
Close your eyes. What is past is past, I let it go. Who knows what lies ahead? Now I will do as much as I can, as well as I can.
Invoke something spiritually meaningful. I receive abundant grace and have my spiritual practice to support me.
Talk assuredly to yourself. This is my life right now. I have a Mountain of Too Much in front of my. But this burden too will pass.
Count your blessings. I am grateful that I have work, that it's a beautiful day...And then start climbing the mountain - a little more confident, a little less weary.
sunday sky
Well it does
yes, it does
You see...you get all pumped up about something
You get all excited
You make the decision to go...do it...
Put yourself out there
You make the calls, you make the plans
You get up early on a Sunday morning
You're ready when your dear friend picks you up
You have the good chat in the car on the way
It's a beautiful Sunday morning - no traffic, blue sky, hot sun beating down
You're calm - not to nervous
Then it happens
You get there and yes, there
You get there
No power
No power in the building
No power means no music
No music means no dancing
Your friend and you don't believe it
Something will work out
You have to do this TODAY
But nope, it doesn't happen
It doesn't get fixed
You're about to leave in a big heap of disappointment
but wait...
music?
car?
parking lot?
yes, there is music coming out of a car and yes, there are people dancing in the parking lot
You drop your stuff and you dance
You dance because you have to ...even if it's for only 15 minutes
You dance because you have to....
It couldn't be all lost
maybe next week.......