A day in the life of us around here lately...I'm going to be honest, it's been difficult, blissful, tearful and just plain hard.
Kadison is a magical, hilarious little girl and I can't even express how much joy and love she brings me. The words, phrases and sentences that come out of her mouth on a daily basis amaze us. These past few months have been the hardest and most frustrating I've ever had to deal with and it's because of her. She didn't come with a handbook and those pregnancy/parenting books that I read cover to cover before she came along did not prepare us or even tell us what to really do now.
She won't eat and she won't sleep - a combo that can be darn right disasterous, of course because I know how I get when those 2 things don't happen. But when you're 2 and those 2 things don't happen you can't really know the full blown ramifications. But we sure do....
Tim and I have our moments where we're laughing at how all of this is pay back for whatever either of us did to our own parents but that can only go so far. We're trying and doing our best and sometimes that just isn't enough. I feel like a total failure on a regular basis and defeated most days.
I know this is all a phase and we will have them through out her life and ours but this phase is knocking us all on our butts!
Knowing there is another magical joyfull little one coming to us soon just makes it more scarier and more exciting at the same time. Some days I ask myself what we got ourselves into but the days of joy and overwhelming love conquer all.
So the silence on my part these past few months is only because the hours in the day are limited and my energy level is pretty low....please don't forget about me...I hope to come up for air sooner than later but you just never know what this unpredictable future holds!
Posted by stef at December 9, 2007 04:28 PMi've thought of this post often, since reading it almost a month ago.
i wanted to reach through my screen and give you a great big hug!!!
i haven't been reading here for very long, but i'm always happy to whenever a new post of yours comes my way...i look forward to them. i won't ever forget you're here. xo
I think you are doing just fine...in the end...you just have to be you...100% you...that is all any child (or partner) can ask for...be gentle with yourself..xx
Posted by: Lin at December 29, 2007 08:49 AMi know in my heart of hearts you are the best mommy kadison could ever ask for.
i also validate the hard parts, knowing how frustrating that must be.
sending you all my love and care, and extra gentleness when needed.
you are magic,
mccabe x
Hang in there! :)
Posted by: Gooseberried at December 14, 2007 09:36 PMIt's so fun to watch her grow up virtually! She is so beautiful and adorable! Miss you, Stef. Sending you a big hug! xo
Posted by: Alex at December 14, 2007 12:57 PMparenting is just plain hard and lonely sometimes...humor helps a lot and not being too hard on yourself...sharing with other friends is good too...and all the books that probably could've helped i read AFTER the kids were pretty much grown! age, time and experience really were my best teachers but geez why did i have to "see the light" after they're grown? ;)
Posted by: patricia at December 10, 2007 09:57 AMOh darling of course we won't forget about you. I wish you the best of luck with your little one. Children can be very difficult at times, but always remember you are not a failure...infact you are simply wonderful.
Posted by: Jennifer Belthoff at December 9, 2007 09:49 PM