nope, can't tell you

nope, I won't tell you

I won't tell you how hard it can be to just admit it's hard
I won't tell you that sometimes I get sick of hearing about how "hard" it is
I won't tell you that I think about death a lot
I won't tell you that I think about running away and never looking back
I won't tell you that sometimes it gets too much to handle
I won't tell you that I sometimes think other people can hear my voice inside my head
I won't tell you that I dive into books and become them
I won't tell you that I devour People and US magazine
I won't tell you that it aches to stand up from sitting down
I won't tell you how many times I've said I'd go to the gym or yoga and never did
I won't tell you how many journal entries say "work out!"
I won't tell you how many times I've said the same thing over and over and over again and still didn't do it
I won't tell you the jealousy that rises up from within
I won't tell you about the envy or the comparing
I won't tell you about the fear that shuts me down
I won't tell you about the lonliness that overcomes me
I won't tell you about the yearning or the wishing

I won't tell you ...

I just won't tell you today

Posted by stef at October 15, 2007 08:38 PM