a sick child on a date night weekend ~ trying to just go with the flow
watching the Oprah with Eat, Pray, Love author....trying to figure out my new Mantra
trying to come up with the right words and prayers for a dear friend in need
trying to come up with the right words and prayers for me
cherishing the pokes and jabs from within my ever growing belly
the sun on my face in the brisk morning air
smelling fall in the air
looking forward to a weekend retreat in the santa cruz mountains with my succulent friends
counting the days to our road trip to portland to visit my parents in their new home
online shopping at Boden
enjoying some peace and quiet on a sunday afternoon......
more....
i sit here with so many thoughts and ideas swirling around in my head not really knowing how to get them out
i search through the internet comparing but knowing i don't want to do that but always being the curious george i just can't help it
my imagination is so wild and i fear someone finding out the real voice inside me
enjoying reading keri smith and her journey through pregnancy for the first time...knowing the feelings and bizarre thoughts that go through the mind and body
wanting to change my lifestyle and live simply but also wanting the huge mondo beyondo list i make
the confusion between one life and the next
the words that elizabeth gilbert writes and talks about and how that scares me but also the comfort of it all
feelings that aren't comfortable
sick of being sad
wanting the time to sort out the details
the need to put a sign outside my door saying "everything for sale" and starting new
the new conversations about moving and what that would look like and mean
missing family and friends
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Posted by: wdghuamy at November 9, 2007 04:30 PMi'm not entirely sure how i ended up here.
i've linked from one lovely space to another this morning...
in search of something, i suppose...
and found your honest words and your beautiful blog...
that made me want to stay and visit for a little while longer.
i hope that's okay.
as always,
i read your words and say to myself,
"me too."
the simplicity and honesty with which you express is truly inspiring....
you are a beauty*
your friend
mccabe x
ps i have been doing the comparing thing lately too!
Posted by: mccabe at October 11, 2007 08:23 AMi too have been touched by eat, pray, love. i read it last summer and the words came at just the right time. i haven't seen the oprah episode yet...but i do have it tivoed...
Posted by: la vie en rose at October 9, 2007 09:50 AMhi stef!
sorry kad is sick:(
i feel right there with you... ideas of simplyfying, moving?, comparing... creating an intentional life. hey, i like what laura wrote above about using your inner compass.
and i dig that small mag!
love to you,
mati
More ramblings from Sunday:
good to meet you stefanie...laura here.
Am just finishing Eat~Pray~Love. I feel that it was written for me at this time of my life. Glad to see you enjoyed it as well. It's amazing to me how these things find their way into our hands at just the right moment, isn't it?
I understand the urge to simplify as well. I fall into the consumerist trap for a while... then I look around me and wonder how much clearer my thoughts would be if most of it weren't there. I am trying to balance the neccesity of a thing with my own worthiness to have it if I wish. I felt guilty for a long time about purchasing things just because I wanted them. Now I feel that it's not about guilt it's about intentionally creating the life that I wish to have. Does this item fit in with the life that I wish to have or is it just a nice thing?
I am still working on the whole idea... My favorite book on the subject of simplicity is 'The Simple Living Guide' by Janet Luhrs. You might like it as well. I think it's great especially after eat-pray-love as they both have a tone of creating the life that you want intentionally, by using your inner compass and not by outside influences.
signing off:
from Charleston
good - night