the voice on the other end

I picked up the phone, heard her voice and I almost broke right there.

I held it together though, asked quickly how she was, but she was on to me

She asked how I was and I of course said just fine, had a quick sigh and a bit of a laugh.

She spoke again, I almost broke again, but again I held it together.

"take a deep breathe with me right now, I feel you need this"

so I did

I took the breathe in and held it for a little longer than necessary and let it out, and I couldn't keep everything in any longer.

I broke.

Not full blown but I felt it bubbing over and I didn't think I could hold it in any longer, I was tired and didn't have the energy.

"I feel there is a sadness there"

A bit shocked I quietly said yes.

"Try to just be with it for 5 min without asking the questions why"

ok

"Call me later if you need to, but take the 5 min, please."

I hung up the phone, grabbed my sunglasses and my office keys and walked right out of the building, past the gate and up the street before even realizing I was still holding my breath. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. You can let it out now, I kept chanting to myself.....and with that I broke...and spilled...and walked into the hot sun.

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knowing this is ironic from my last post
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Posted by stef at March 6, 2007 08:18 PM