i'm nervous or a feeling a bit vulnerable writing this but i'm here for a reason so why not..
so i had a teeny tiny a-ha moment this weekend: i'm sitting here thinking about this "store" i talked about and thinking about why i want this place and what is it exactly? what does it look like?
And i came to this realization for right now that it's not really this "retail" space i want, it's the "feeling" that this place would bring me. it's an open space where yes there are comfy chairs and an abundance of books and eats but where i want this is right here...right here in my own home. i want this feeling and these wonderful women in my space. i just want this feeling and this support and this energy in my space. i don't necessarily want to sell anything, i don't want the dealings with money or rent or all the many other things that come along with owning this space. for right now i'm realizing that i want this "feeling" within my own home.
so for now i'm sitting with this thought and feeling good about it.
yes, my other voices inside are asking a whole lot of questions but for now i'm going to trust this first one that gave me this thought, this feeling and just stick with it for now.
Posted by stef at October 8, 2006 03:05 PMmy friend, this is so wonderfully perfect. you are listening to your inner wisdom - it's so evident in you words!
Posted by: julie at October 10, 2006 06:03 PMyes. me too. i totally get this.
Posted by: my pink sky at October 10, 2006 11:36 AMi get it, i do...and i think it's a very important message...and just so you'll know, when you were reading about the things you wanted i found myself whispering, 'me too'...
Posted by: la vie en rose at October 9, 2006 11:52 AMpure clarity... well defined! it's a nobel thing to understand and articulate the essence of what will make your heart sing. i'm happy for your aha moment. keep going, sweet stef!
Posted by: snowsparkle at October 8, 2006 10:05 PMYou are awesome. This so brave and tender and beautiful. Good luck in anything and everything you do!
Posted by: Becky at October 8, 2006 03:56 PM