these thoughts were provoked by poems and writings tonight...
i sometimes or always think that i need the perfect photo or the perfect words or not even perfect because i'm not really a perfectionist but i like things to be close to perfect or somewhere about...but tonight i'm letting it all go and just putting out there some random messiness.....
tell me yours if you wish...
i want money, i want candy, i want to eat chocolate all day long with no consequences. i want that vw van that green and all tricked out one and i want that cross country road trip i've thought about for years. i want to tour with a band and i want to sing on stage. i want to dance to footloose. i want that beach house in my dreams, the one where i have it all decorated all artist like with hippy pillows everywhere and a kitchen so big it's like i really cook.
i want the art studio and dark room and know what to do in both. i'd be confident and a free spirit and so loving. i'd be the older woman "spirit" who also shows up in my dreams - i'd be her and everyone would love me and want to be around me.
i want my husband making music and following his heart to places he can't even imagine.
i want money and candy and i want avacadoes and blueberries so juicy they make you giggle
i want that trip to the magical place where other magical spiritual people go.
i want to belong
i want to go to that juicy place in my heart that only my heart can lead me too
i want to listen
i want money, money, money to bring me to exotic jungles and luxurious spas where i lay naked while a gorgeous man named Dieter kneeds my back and ass
i want the hot tubs on cliffs in Big Sur
i want road trips to no where but enough cheetos to last the trip
i want her life, her life and hers but then end up back in mine
i want red hair, miniskirts and hot pants
i want high heals and high tops
i want to know truth and speak it
i want money and i want candy all day long without bad skin and extra pounds
i want a world where we all feel safe and there is no Bush
I want flowers at my bedside put there by someone else
i want every chance i can get
i want long nights with endless talk and expression of truth
i want cupcakes
i want money and lots of it just to see what it would really do
i want that religious experience, that spiritual experience, that moment, yes, that moment where you say A-Ha! the moment where you just know, with your whole being that yes, that. that one thing you just know. i want that
see...random!
Posted by stef at October 5, 2006 09:53 PMI love this...
"i want her life, her life and hers but then end up back in mine"
it is so inconceivably, absolutely, true!
xo!
so yummy!!! i loved this piece you wrote in the wild write thursday night... i'm so glad you posted it here!
Posted by: snowsparkle at October 7, 2006 09:26 PMRight now I have it all....
Loving life in a blissful state..and you know what that does...that brings prosperity and abundance of all things I want, directly to me!!!
I am letting go of all fears...letting go of all self destructive thoughts...and just BEING.
Being in total bliss that life is so amazing and wonderful when you take the time to experience and live it...
Let go of that need to have the highest paying job...and you gain time..and an appreciation for life...and if you can do that...money comes to you in other ways...you draw so much joy and abundance to yourself.
I smiled at so many of the things you wrote Stef...you probably won't believe it, but
1. I have had my naked butt massaged by a Jamaican named Bobby a hundred years ago poolside in Jamaican Villa in broad daylight.
2. I danced on the stage with the cast from HAIR at the end when they grab people from the audience...singing Let the SunShine In...
3.I sang American Pie in a funky little pub in SoHo(London) at bar time when an American soccer team staggered in....we all sang...so buzzed and in total bliss.
I am grateful..right now.
I love your wants....keep them coming and be specific....they will come!!!!
Again, if you haven't already..read Ask and It is Given by Abraham-Hicks...and Excuse Me, your Life is Waiting by Lynn Grabhorn. If those books don't put you in the flow of abundance I don't know what will. And view The Secret...DVD...
I am Loving Life....
Come along with me!!!!!
i love the randomness...
today i want our children to go to school and not fear for their lives, i want a vacation and time to just sleep, i want a weekend filled with johnny depp movies, and money, yes, lots and lots of money so i can get myself out of debt and not have that worry hanging over my head all the time, i want fresh flowers every week, i want to buy every cd i want, i want guitar lesson and a photography course, i want someone to invent a vegan cheese that actually tastes like cheese, i want every human to have a warm, safe place to live...and medical care..., i want to wear tight jeans and low cut blouses...and actually look good in them, i want to travel, i want enough money so that i don't have to choose who goes to the doctor, me or my son, and a hair cut, i desperately need a haircut...and an oil change...but i don't want to have to pay for either of those things because i want to spend my money on fun things like clothes and shoes and new panties, i want all brand new panties because mine are old and not very sexy, and some new lenses for my camera...is that all? i'm sure there's more but i'll stop...don't want to be a comment hog...
Posted by: la vie en rose at October 6, 2006 11:25 AMI absolutly love your "random post" Please don't hold back if you think it is not perfect because this is divine.
Posted by: Jennifer at October 6, 2006 09:48 AM