lone avacado, hawaii
I take things so personally; when I really shouldn't. I assume people are mad at me, I assume I did something wrong, I assume they don't want to be friends with me. I assume it's ALL ABOUT ME.
Well I'm sure it's not and even if it is, well ....then it is.
I try over and over to not take it all so personally, to let things roll off, to get over it but it's so hard for me to do that. I have a very hard time "getting over it".
Acceptance isn't an easy word for me.
I'm trying though, because I just have to. I have to learn to accept. I have to
just do it and move on. It's paralyzing when I don't.
I'm realizing that I just went off on a bit of a tangent because I was first starting this as me taking things so personally because someone hasn't talked to me in awhile and I'm sitting here wondering what I did wrong and why things are the way they are.
But then I switched gears and started in on the non-acceptance thing because it's something else that's going on with me and has gone on for awhile that I'm just actually realizing now; that I don't easily accept what really is. Am I actually living in a fantasy world?
Since I'm on this off-kilter roll I'll just keep going...
Why do I sit in this paralized state of un-acceptance? What does it do for me?
Nothing is what I'm finally learning. Or nothing good at least.
1 day at a time, 1 moment at a time. Putting it out here and really saying it out loud makes it a bit easier to accept.
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I'm 1/2 way through "Eat, Pray, Love" and I have to say it's pretty damn good! I've dreamed of going to Italy for years and this just makes it more important to actually GO!
Know you will have millions of opportunities to accept things. They will keep changing, moment by moment. Once you get nice and comfy having accepted someone's behavior, they will do something unexpected and you've got a brand new freakin' thing to accept!!! Yipppeee! That's probably why it's easiest to just accept what is RIGHT NOW and let it go, because it will definitely keep going on its own. Let the world spin itself. Take care of YOU.
Posted by: Becky at May 4, 2006 05:53 PMyou are about the 4th or 5th person to recommend eat, pray, love. i think i'm gonna have to read it now so i can be in the cool crowd.
about taking things personally--have you read the 4 agreements? its a small book that packs a big punch...
Posted by: la vie en rose at May 3, 2006 01:14 PMconfusing, isn't it? it sounds like you're coming to some important realizations! can i borrow that book when you're done- it looks amazing! provided we ever see each other, which reminds me that we never sealed that and i will look at that last email from you about times/days! last day of school for me today:)
xo,
mati
ohhhh....me too.
bryce and i were just discussing this last nite.
why do we do this to ourselves?