
i have a headache
i need to go to bed
i want to go to bed
waiting for tim to get back from the grocery store so i can have a glass of oj before bed
why?
who knows really
i'm so tired - work is really draining me of me lately and i can't seem to get ahead of it
drained is all i feel
i want to focus on me
i want to
but the time just passes me by
the weekends are so precious but again, too short
i'm just not cut out for this kind of life
this 7am - 7pm day of leaving my house to sit in an office and deal with all of "that"
to top it all off ....
i ate a whole candy bar today...
...to be completely honest i actually ate 2 candy bars!!!
...oh well...life will go on
Posted by stef at January 24, 2006 09:08 PMHoney, don't even go there about the candy bars!!! hahah you have seen my ass!!!!
You are on your way....I know it cuz you are feeling just the way I felt before I began this new adventure in my life. You just get to a point when money and a 9to5 just don't mean that much anymore. Self satisfaction and loving your life is coming!!!!! Just let Tim get done with school and then it's YOUR turn, baby!!!
And, I know you're gonna kick ass!
A whole candy bar?? I had 3 donuts today and a scoop of Cookie Dough Craving from Culver's!!
I know what you mean about being drained though. Every night I just come home, get my pj's on and just want to lay on the couch with the kids. I am just so tired!
Love ya and am looking forward to seeing you soon!
Erin
Posted by: Erin at January 26, 2006 05:31 PMwhen i am overloaded and eat two candybars... sometimes the chocolate gives me a headache!maybe you just need a break! the headache FORCES YOU to lie down and take one! it is magic!
Posted by: candy at January 26, 2006 09:53 AMit sounds like you have unrealistic expectations for yourself-so what if you ate to candy bars?! seriously, nothing to be hard on yourself about. why are you denying yourself candy bars, relaxation, little joys?! take a break! you deserve it! are you diabetic or something? what's wrong w a candy bar, you can let go of the reigns
Posted by: penelope at January 26, 2006 09:50 AMGood on you for the two candy bars! Don't feel guilty. Enjoy it! I know it's tough right now. Before we moved, I was working for a design agency ALMOST two hours away (insane! I will never make that long of a commute again.) I would leave my house around 6 or 6:30 in the morning and get home between 7 and 9 (sometimes even later, depending on my workload) at night. I was making myself sick... depressed, miserable. I didn't feel like I had a spare moment to myself. I had tons of ideas and inspiration, but not the energy to see any of it through after such a long day at work. Hopefully your situation will improve soon. I know it's really rough.
I'm sending lots of good vibes your way.
Posted by: rachael at January 26, 2006 01:05 AMYou deserve to eat a whole candy bar every so often!! I suppose it had DARK chocolate too! In another month you can have a BLIZZARD if you'd like.:) If you don't allow yourself some little luxuries than life isn't very much fun.
Keep focusing on what else you might be interested in and hopefully sooner than later you won't have to do the 12 hour days. And if that doesn't happen, you've got a wonderful husband and beautiful daughter to come home to after work to help put a smile on your face. :)
Love you and I'm anxious to see you in a month!
Heather
Posted by: heather at January 25, 2006 03:34 PMI hope you at a Nutrageous Bar. They are deeeee-licious! They are so yummy that they block the brain waves that try to make a person feel guilty for such things.
Eat the whole candy bar.
Take a walk on the beach.
Scrawl a picture in a book.
Read "The Alchemist" by Paul Coelho
Have tea with me at Julie's Tea!
;)
Posted by: Kate at January 25, 2006 02:48 PMhope you feel much better and much more you again soon!
Posted by: carrie at January 25, 2006 11:45 AMwhat's wrong with eating a whole candy bar? it sounds pretty good to me. a little bit of joy in a hectic, too-full life. take care of yourself...and let yourself have another candy bar if you want one.
Posted by: la vie en rose at January 25, 2006 09:03 AM