I am single for a couple of days...
I feel out of sorts but also free
Tim and Kadison flew back to Minneapolis to visit family and I'll be meeting up with them on Thanksgiving day..
Yes, I said my sad goodbyes at the airport today and it sucked! I didn't want them to leave...for her to leave...
I know that Tim will take care of her just fine but I miss her dearly!
But I got to go shopping after work tonight with no thoughts of getting home on time or thinking I had to call home for any reason..
I didn't find anything shopping but I didn't much care; I was just OUT and loving the freedom..
Wandering around downtown SF and feeling a bit out of it but also feeling at home...
I had so many ideas on what to do, where to go but I didn't do any of it..
I just walked...
I'm home and it's so quiet and very weird! I think I've only been home once by myself since we've moved here....
I turned on most of the lights, the TV and I also have some music playing...
I need the company..
I even have Monday night football on (he who knows me, knows this is strange)
But it's comfort...
I don't have much of a point here but to say that I'm feeling free but also strange....there is a void, a big one....
Posted by stef at November 21, 2005 08:07 PMThe Buddha from the tea shop! What great memories.
Posted by: T at December 1, 2005 08:14 PMyou've captured the essence of momness... it either feels like not enough space or way too much. Not sure if you'd already left before I dropped the pink rose and note at your door this morning. Just was thinking of you and wanted to let you know. I use the same trick... when my guys are gone, I tune the tv to a sports event and it makes it seem like the two of them are still there planted on the sofa. :) Have a great trip. xxoo- Mare
Posted by: mare at November 22, 2005 02:37 PMi always look forward to those times the boys will be gone and i'll have everything to myself, to do just as i please...and then, when it happens, i don't know what to do with myself. i'm so used to life one way that life another way has become foreign.
Posted by: la vie en rose at November 22, 2005 09:50 AMI know this feeling... You can't wait for the moment to go to the mall without luggin your complicated infant along. Then the minute they are really gone, and you begin to notice the lonliness of the floor boards talking back to you, and you feel like you are missing your right arm... It's kind of a weird anxeity. Happy Thanksgiving! Hang in there! Love ya!
Posted by: danielle at November 22, 2005 08:26 AM