I sit here tonight trying to find some words, some feelings....but I can't, I don't..
I love to sit and read what others have to offer for inspiration and I hope to be moved...get a glimpse of what I want to say....
But tonight I don't...
I'm grateful to have the rain beating down my door
I'm grateful to have gone to the beach on Saturday night even though we missed the sunset; I got us all out of the car anyway, bundled up Kadison and walked through the thick sand down to the waters edge to just hear the waves, feel the cold wind on our faces, I had too....I needed it...I needed to be there. Feel it..
Oh, I've missed it...
I need to give myself a break...life is hard...or hard for me anyway...working, being a mom, being a wife, being a friend...trying to be myself...
Balance...it's a balancing act I haven't mastered yet...or gotten even close...
It's 8:30pm and I think I'm ready for sleep....oh, how times have changed!
Posted by stef at November 7, 2005 08:55 PMYou are balancing just fine. Everything is exactly as it is supposed to be. Don't be so hard on yourself!!! Take care of yourself and those you love(within reason,of course!!).
It's all good and getting better everyday.
You will never look back in 50 years and say I wish I stayed up til 10pm that Saturday nite.
While reading your blog and the other comments about balance it all of a sudden struck me that we all might be trying to do an OLD balancing act. You know, balancing all of our old selves with the new self we are becoming. Maybe balance LOOKS different now. Maybe it looks all cattywampus and crooked but it IS balanced with our new lives. I don't know if I ever knew what balance looks like or feels like.
Posted by: Becky at November 9, 2005 07:48 PMdear stef... wishing i had great words of wisdom for you right now. the word well has run dry... i, too, am alseep by 8:30 lately... or at least curled up in bed with comic books. enjoy the quiet time. you are balancing it all, it's just hard to see. BiG HuGS! ~danielle
Posted by: danielle at November 9, 2005 07:51 AMoh, sweet soul, i know that balancing act your talking about...walking the tight rope and all the while trying not to loose that essential connection to myself. they say you should keep your eyes forward, not to look down. keep looking in front of you girlfriend.
Posted by: la vie en rose at November 8, 2005 04:39 PMI was asleep by 8:30 Saturday night...you are not alone. Whomever figures out the art of balancing every role they play, please share :)