time to go- nikon d70
I'm sad, I'm grieving about leaving the city.
Some may think I'm over -reacting or making a big deal out of nothing but to me it isn't nothing.
You see - there is a story behind me living in San Francisco and even more of a story of living in North Beach.
When I was a sophmore in college I wasn't doing too well to say the least
I found myself in the self help section of the bookstore
A colorful book jumped out at me and the name of it was "Inspiration Sandwich" by SARK
SARK saved me that day and many days to come
Her talk of San Francisco and the magical walks in North Beach made me want to live here some day
At the time I didn't have a clue how that would ever happen ~ it was such a dream
But after meeting my future husband, getting my life together and getting a job at a major airline I saw that the dream wasn't so far away
After many years, many visits we finally made the move to California
We found out that the dot.com boom wouldn't let us actually live in SF because of the high rents so we settled for San Mateo - a city down on the pennisula
After a couple of years we finally made it into SF but not to North Beach because of their high rents
Eventually we did move to North Beach and it was really a dream come true
After many years and many changes I still felt the pull to the magical walks, the Italian eats and SARK
Now after living here for the last few years we have decided we must move ~ our lives are different now
We have different priorites
We have Kadison
And living in a very small one bedroom apt. just isn't right for us anymore
I'm really sad ~ I feel I didn't take advantage of everything we should of, we didn't do enough, we didn't see enough...the list goes on
But the fact of the matter is we move on Monday
Yes, where we're moving to is bigger, better and it's going to be great
I don't doubt that
I still grieve though
I still wish there could of been a way to stay here
But change is good
Change is what I crave oh so often
Yes, we can come back and visit our favorite restaurants and favorite spots but it won't be the same
Yes, at least we lived here for a while and yes, everything happens for a reason but I'm still sad
It takes awhile for me to get over things...I dwell... I think too much...
Our new home will bring happiness and new adventures
I know
I'm just sad
It's okay to be sad! Always hurts to pull up roots, even if you know you're going to be planting them somewhere else.
Posted by: lindsey at June 13, 2005 09:41 AMHi!
I can understand you: I was in SF in year 2000 and it was great; we were guest in a beautiful house in North Beach and I can't forget it!! I think SF is the town for me. But I live in Italy! So far away, I don't even know if I will be there again in my life.
So don't worry, you are moving right now, but you can move back, and better, again.
I'm confident you'll see (as I have many times) that what you gain in the new place will make those sad feelings about the old place begin to fade. And yes, you'll still be close to your old City haunts...but my guess is you'll be so consumed with all the exciting and fun and happy moments that are about to occur in your lives because of Kadison that they'll greatly outweigh the loss of geographic immediacy. I completely understand what it feels like to finally 'get your dream'...and I also know that dreams change and evolve and morph. And I can't help but think that you have a new dream life just waiting for you in your new location. Good luck with the move!
Posted by: Marilyn at June 12, 2005 09:44 AMstef,
i so get this.... i just moved from az to pa. it's so completly different. i've been here three months and i am still grieving. our lives are good here and good things have happened because of this move, but it's been really hard. try to stay open to the changes so you don't miss what is there for you.
jenn
Posted by: jenn at June 11, 2005 11:43 AM