float or sink...

Do you ever feel like you're just not getting got?
Like no one around you is really "getting" you?

You know it's not true, that there are people around you getting you, relating to you, but you still feel all alone.

This blog community makes me feel like I'm not alone - through others and my own I feel like there are people out there who really get me or are at least going through similar situations...

But then on the other hand in my every day life there are people who just don't get me...
I think I've felt this way all my life
Not feeling quite there
Not quite feeling a part of it all
Feeling like an outcast
Feeling like I just don't belong anywhere..

I think I've always been searching for that group, that person, that community to let me in and belong. Belong like no other.

I found that in Tim, he gets me, or at least he really tries to get me.
There are friends out there who probably know me more than I give them credit for..

But there's still this feeling like I just don't belong, like I'm still the outcast, still that girl who sits on the sidelines looking in...

I think it's time to jump in, jump in the middle and see what happens...
I've been saying that I like the edge, living on the edge, never really living in the center of it all
I feel inadequate in the middle, like I'm drowning...but I think it's time to dive in and really see if I can indeed float or sink....

what better time than now?

Posted by stef at January 22, 2005 06:00 AM