another night of or should I say morning where I am up ...and can't get back to sleep.
i think the baby had the hiccups because it was really jumpy this morning...and maybe that's why i'm up now and can't get back to sleep
or maybe it's because i have so much on mind and it races when i can't sleep and i can hear my own heart beat in my ears and tim breathing next to me and all i can focus on is all this and maybe that's why i can't sleep anymore.
i have to get up in a couple of hours anyway so why not just get out of the warm snuggly bed and have a bowl of cereal (the total cure all) and get something done.
i have a to do list a mile long - something i swore i wouldn't do this year but my mind races way to much to not make lists...and i swear the baby is taking my memory away because i can't seem to remember anything from minute to minute so i feel i have to write things down all the time just to remember what i'm thinking
i feel a bit crazy right now
again, my mind races ...
conflict, confrontations, arguements, overall stress but then i feel the kicks and the squirms and it all seems to be ok
maybe i'm just tired and i need to really get some good sleep but it doesn't seem to be happening anymore
a good thing that happened last night was that i made smores - yup, right on my stove! they were soooo good. my biggest treat that i recently found are "Go Go Grahams" from Trader Joes - you put a dove dark and a marshmallow and you are in total heaven :)
a poster i'm staring at...
MAYBE - we are building a new world
by SARK
"Maybe we'll paint marshmallows purple, and free circus elephants"
this puts it all in perspective now....
Posted by stef at January 20, 2005 04:35 AM