NEW

Waking up today with some anxiety but also anticipation ..
In the shower, I think and smile (my new philosophy of smiling more to myself to keep myself more positive)
I get out, towel off and stand naked in the mirror
Checking myself out and noticing the changes to my shape
Trying to remember everything how it used to be

We go to our Dr. appt
I pee in a cup, weigh in and wait for our dr.
We hear the heart beat again, this time it doesn't take any time to find it
So fast, so awesome

On to the next appt.
The ULTRA SOUND
We walk into this dark calm, relaxing room with a blue ceiling with clouds and birds
I feel myself take a deep breathe
Knowing it will all be ok
We see it
yes, we do
It's actually a baby and not a monkey or an alien
It's a baby
Our baby
It's alive and well, moving around, being so active the technician can't get his readings or good photos right away
I lay there for an hour, waiting, watching
In awe
We're both in awe
We see the head, the nose, the ears, the nose, the hands, legs ...the beating heart
WOW - so amazing and so beautiful

This is the most important thing I, We will do in our lives
To give birth to this being
To raise this being with love and compassion

It was hard to go back to work
To face the day to day
Like nothing really fabulous happened
But it did.....

Posted by stef at November 18, 2004 10:54 PM