I live in fear almost everyday over something...

the call i dread about a loved one being hurt or dead
the fear of not seeing my family and friends again
the fear of the last conversation
the fear that i won't ever have a baby
the fear that i will live in fear all my life
the fear that i won't see tomorrow
the fear i feel about talking in front of a group of people
the fear of saying the wrong thing
the feeling of being ignorant
the feeling of being laughed at
the fear of doing the wrong thing
the fear of making the wrong choices and decisions
the fear of moving forward
the fear of following someone else
the fear of following myself
the fear of the unknown.

then there are days that i conquer the fear
i get up in the morning
i fly on the flying trapeze
i move across the country
i quit a job i hated
i started a new job that I enjoy
i get on a plane like it's a bike
i drive in a big city
i cross the street before the light says go
i move forward
i launch a blog with my photography and words
i write about everything and anything and read it to others
i make plans for the future and act on them
i meet people i admire

what fears do you conquer?

Posted by stef at June 10, 2004 10:46 PM